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[Home Plot] Sticks and Stones, Pt. IV
May. 16th, 2013 03:36 pmIn a word, I wake up violently.
I can't pull in enough air, can't breathe, each inhale a gasp. My throat feels like sandpaper when I dare to swallow. Limbs tangled in my sheets, I roll from the bed onto the ground with a dull thud -- only to realize everything's dulled. My ears are stuffed with cotton and my hands are bone dry, the world around me dark and flat.
It was all a dream. The Hand, Bullseye, Foggy... All of it. It never happened. We never even left the room. My God, the baby-- Is Ellen even--?
The world tilts. I spit out a sound that's part sob, part yell, and punch the floor, once, with everything I'm worth.
It's not enough.
I can't pull in enough air, can't breathe, each inhale a gasp. My throat feels like sandpaper when I dare to swallow. Limbs tangled in my sheets, I roll from the bed onto the ground with a dull thud -- only to realize everything's dulled. My ears are stuffed with cotton and my hands are bone dry, the world around me dark and flat.
It was all a dream. The Hand, Bullseye, Foggy... All of it. It never happened. We never even left the room. My God, the baby-- Is Ellen even--?
The world tilts. I spit out a sound that's part sob, part yell, and punch the floor, once, with everything I'm worth.
It's not enough.