"I - it wasn't exactly the first thing on my list of priorities," Ellen confesses, with an empty chuckle as her hand falls back into her lap and she sits beside him, looking off into the distance at nothing at all. "Look, before I - before we met, before the island, I hadn't even come close to picturing myself with a family. David was in residency, and I'd just started working for Patty - we barely had enough time to see each other at the end of the day, and to bring a baby into that? It just seemed - selfish. And after he died - "
After he was murdered - she corrects herself, in the silence that follows. He died because he'd been murdered.
" - the thought of anyone else in my life, like that - I was afraid. Afraid of what might happen, if I let someone else in. If they'd get used against me somehow - I didn't want to put anyone else in danger like that. Not again."
She lifts her gaze to his face, and slowly, her hand moves to cover his leg, in the space between the curve of his body and the place where his own hands rest.
"I know this is a surprise for both of us, but - I love you, Matt. After everything I've seen, everything you've told me about - I love every part of you, and every part of us, and this - this is a part of you and me, and - we made it. Together. Even after all the loss, and death, and the people out there trying to hurt us - somehow we did something that feels so much greater than that, you know?"
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Date: 2013-05-09 08:29 pm (UTC)After he was murdered - she corrects herself, in the silence that follows. He died because he'd been murdered.
" - the thought of anyone else in my life, like that - I was afraid. Afraid of what might happen, if I let someone else in. If they'd get used against me somehow - I didn't want to put anyone else in danger like that. Not again."
She lifts her gaze to his face, and slowly, her hand moves to cover his leg, in the space between the curve of his body and the place where his own hands rest.
"I know this is a surprise for both of us, but - I love you, Matt. After everything I've seen, everything you've told me about - I love every part of you, and every part of us, and this - this is a part of you and me, and - we made it. Together. Even after all the loss, and death, and the people out there trying to hurt us - somehow we did something that feels so much greater than that, you know?"