[for Ellen]
Sep. 28th, 2013 10:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
manwithoutfearWe're getting close enough to the baby's due date to start thinking of it in terms of weeks, not months.
It hits me as I'm on my way to Ellen's place after class, and the realization is enough to stop me in my tracks, at least for a moment. In a matter of weeks I'll be a father…
And we're not even married yet.
Perhaps it shouldn't matter as much to me as it does. God may not even exist in this strange little universe that is the Island. We could be outside of His jurisdiction. But regardless of the fact, I sure as hell still believe He exists at home. I haven't been a good Catholic in a very long time, but at the precipice of this life changing event, I've found myself turning back to my neglected faith these past few months. Getting married before the baby comes is important to me.
I quicken my pace, approaching breathlessness by the time I arrive at Ellen's door. I rap against the wood once before letting myself in.
"Honey?"
It hits me as I'm on my way to Ellen's place after class, and the realization is enough to stop me in my tracks, at least for a moment. In a matter of weeks I'll be a father…
And we're not even married yet.
Perhaps it shouldn't matter as much to me as it does. God may not even exist in this strange little universe that is the Island. We could be outside of His jurisdiction. But regardless of the fact, I sure as hell still believe He exists at home. I haven't been a good Catholic in a very long time, but at the precipice of this life changing event, I've found myself turning back to my neglected faith these past few months. Getting married before the baby comes is important to me.
I quicken my pace, approaching breathlessness by the time I arrive at Ellen's door. I rap against the wood once before letting myself in.
"Honey?"